Are you self conscious?

I was walking earlier and for some reason there were alot of cars coming in and out of my neighborhood.  In my head I was wondering what those people were thinking about seeing me walking.  Were there thoughts positive or negative?  Were they saying look at that fat woman trying to lose weight and laughing at me or were they thinking good for her she's trying to get into shape? 

Do you worry about what other people think?  Are you self conscious when you are working out?  Do you worry when you are eating in public what people must be thinking?  Are there things you just don't do because of being embarassed of what others think?

I know I'm losing weight and I'm going to continue to lose weight but I still think alot about what people are seeing when they look at me.  When I'm walking to and from class I wonder if people see me as just another student or are they laughing at the fat lady trying to fit in?  When I go into a store and I go to checkout I analyze what I'm buying and how someone might judge me because of it.  When I'm walking do people who pass by see me as someone working out to get in shape or are they laughing at me?

There are certain stores that I just don't go into because I don't feel like I belong there....Victoria Secrets for one.  Or maybe I'm looking at clothes in a store and I wonder into the smaller sizes and in my mind other women are thinking to themselves......."you wish you could fit into these sizes fatty".  I'm careful what I order when I go to a restaurant because I'm sure the server is already thinking......."eating like this is what got you that fat".

I'm just ready to stop having these negative thoughts.  I want to feel like an average person who just fits in.  I know being overweight shouldn't define who we are but when everytime you turn around some skinny stick figure is telling you that a size 10 is a plus size then what are you suppose to think when you wear a 16-18?  How do you deal with these negative feelings and thoughts?  Are you happy in your skin right now and if you are how did you get to that point?