A kick in the butt

Earlier on my Food and Exercise Journal post I put that it was raining here and I hate walking on the treadmill so I was going to skip exercising today.  Well I was gone for awhile and when I came back online this was the comment I had:

"For us to suceed we must do things we dont always want to do. So get on the tread and get moving, you know you want to, you know its what you should do. I am just here to help and I wish someone would tell me what I need to hear more often. So I am telling you and I will also get my butt moving today just for you."

This comment came from Becki at  http://becki-myweightlossjourney.blogspot.com/ and this was the very first time that she had ever commented on my blog.  I immediately thanked her for leaving this comment and for giving me the kick in the butt I needed to get moving.  Lucky for me the rain had decided to take a break and I got ready and tackled my walk around the neighborhood.  At first I thought ok I can do 3 laps which would be 2.1 miles but then I wanted to go for more so I decided to go for 4 laps but still that wasn't good enough so I pushed myself to do 6 laps which was 4 miles.  When I got home I sent Becki a message thanking her again and dedicating those 4 miles to her. 


I know that I can't always depend on someone else to give me that extra push and most of the time I can find in within myself but not today.  I could have walked on the treadmill but I took the rain as an excuse to get out of exercising and Becki saw right through my excuse.  This is the wonderful weight loss community I have found that reaches out and gives support, encouragement and even a little nudge if need be to keep each other going.  Thanks to a stranger and hopefully a friend now I finished 4 miles toward my New Years goal that I wouldn't have done otherwise.  What a great feeling to know I have people rooting me on, I won't fail you.

I'll start tomorrow

The famous line of everyone trying to lose weight, "I'll start tomorrow" but tomorrow never comes. I've said that to myself thousands of times and here I am 37 years old and still fat.  If your anything like me Monday is always the perfect day to start and then Monday comes and you screw up, either you eat something you weren't suppose to or you don't exercise so then you just decide to go ahead and blow the whole day by eating whatever you want because you can always start again tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow and here I am 25 years later still starting tomorrow but not this time, today is the day.  I'm sick of wasting my life wishing I was skinny or daydreaming about what it would be like to be thinnier.  I'm tired of hating what I see when I look in the mirror, I'm tired of wondering what everyone is thinking or saying about me, and I'm tired of thinking that there is no way my husband can love someone who looks like me.  I'm fed up with setting a bad example for my kids and not fitting into any of my clothes.  I'm just over being fat, its time for me to be who I know I can really be.  It's time for me to be the skinny girl!!!!

Update on this post:  Today was suppose to be the day I began my new life but I decided to go ahead and start last night and I walked 30 minutes with my husband.  No more procrastinating for me.  I will be weighing this morning before I eat and posting my weight and pictures so that I can start tracking my weight loss today.