Bored

I'm bored out of my mind and that usually leads to overeating but no more.  I'm stronger than that and I'm determined to lose weight.  All my kids are gone for the weekend so I'm all alone with nothing to do but eating isn't the solution.  I could go to sleep but I'm not sleepy.  I could work on schoolwork but I'm all caught up.  I could clean but already did that today.  I really need to add a resolution to my list to get a life...lol.  Maybe a long, hot soak in the bath is what I need.  Turn on some music and relax.  What do you do when your bored to keep from eating?

Sticking With It

Well I've made it 6 days without binging or purging and it feels so good to be in control.  Its been a rough week though between the stress of starting school, being bored and stress in my personal life but I'm hanging in there.  I'm staying ahead in my school work, getting the house clean and making out schedules to keep me on track with everything.  The bad thing is I go through this pretty regularly and it never lasts long but I'm going to try to keep it going this time.  I love having routine in my life and knowing what I'm expected to do from day to day.  I've even started to get help from the kids around the house without an argument which is really nice. 

What I don't understand is why if this feeling is so good why do I switch back to my old self?  Is it laziness or do I really have some kind of issue with sticking with things or maybe a combination of both?  Do you find this pattern in your life?  How do you stay on top of things and not become overwhelmed?

Boredom

I'm suffering from a major case of boredom.  I started school today and I've already finished all my work I had to do and now I'm bored.  My kids are at my moms for the night and I'm all alone and I'm bored.  Can you tell how bored I am?.....lol.  Usually this leads to eating but today I'm just alittle depressed and worried and stressing over something I can't really talk about right now but it feels good to not be turning to food. 

The last 4 days have been easy eating wise and thats got me worried but I'm trying to think positively because negative thinking brings on negative behavior.  Just have to keep repeating these last 4 days, day after day for the next however long it takes to get this weight off.  I do know that I'm going to decrease my portion sizes starting tomorrow because I still feel like sometimes I'm eating to much at one time.  I need to also up my water intake and start getting in more fruits and veggies but I'm taking this one step at a time.  Small changes lead to big changes.

I guess thats about all for now, like I said I'm bored and not really motivated to do anything.  Kind of just feel like going to sleep which that could be because I only slept two hours last night.  Hope your all having a great day in bloggerland.