Monday, February 7, 2011

Losing the Battle but not the War

Some of you may have noticed that I haven't posted in a few days which for me is unusual.  When I started my last eating plan which was the Clean Eating diet I was gung ho on the plan, eating all the right foods at the right times and it seemed to be working for me even though I still hadn't gotten back on track with my exercise yet.  Well as time went by I started to lose my momentum and began slipping back into old patterns.  This last weekend has been really rough on me because I've pretty much eaten anything I wanted and so now I'm feeling guilty for that.  On top of that my bulimia is back, its not something I want to admit and it can make you feel really ashamed but I thought if I put it out there for all of you to know then I would find the motivation to get back on track.  I've in noway given up on losing weight, that is a battle I will never stop fighting, I'm just going through a rough patch right now.  I plan on starting my blogging back tomorrow and trying to get back on track.  I definitely dont want to gain all the weight back that I lost so I need to tackle this right now before it gets to out of hand.  Hope I haven't disappointed any of you to much and I'll be back to my posting tomorrow.

6 comments:

  1. We all slip up sometimes. Getting back on track is all that matters right now. Forget the weekend. Today is a new day. Blogging is a good first step. Staying connected helps keep you accountable. Just keep going.You can do this!!!

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  2. You can't disappoint us, especially with a post like this. Honesty is such a sign of progress. Slipups are part of the process. We learn and grow from it. :)

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  3. Being honest is the best way to be, I think. Do you have someone you can talk to about the bulimia, or do you have bouts and deal yourself? Are you going to be ok? I'm pulling for you-keep your head up, restart sweetie.

    Polar's Mom
    www.polarspage.blogspot.com

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  4. I'm sorry to hear you are having a rouch patch, girl. Unfortunately those are a part of the process, but keep on working and you'll get through it. And then you'll be on the other side, thankful that you kept going. As long as you keep trying no one will be disappointed!

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  5. You know it's like riding a see saw--really way up following the clean eating plan bottoming out turning to binges.. I have been here ,been there,done that..Don't worry about us. Take care of yourself--not with food or a diet plan but with self love. I could say a dozen things, but the main thing is it isn't all about food . I hope you can work some of this stuff out.

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  6. Thanks for your support and I'm going to be fine. I do have a counselor I see once a week and I can talk to her about anything so my next meeting with her will be about my bulimia. I hate that after nine months of being bulimia free that I let it take over again but it is a constant battle that I guess I will always have to fight. I will be ok though I just have to work through it and have a good day to get me back on track. Thanks again for everything.

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