Monday, March 7, 2011
Well I had a few good days of eating and not binging and purging and then the weekend hit and the devil reared his ugly head again. I was all alone and of course I was depressed so I binged and purged once Saturday and three times yesterday. I honestly don't know why I do it. I don't want to, I hate doing it, I try to talk myself out of it but then it always wins in the end. I have dropped 2 lbs in the last couple days but not in a healthy way. Todays a new day though and I promise myself and all of you that I'm not going to overeat or binge and purge. I have my counseling session today so I'm going to talk to her about this problem and see if we can't figure out why I feel the need to resort to such drastic measures. I know that I have to be trying to fulfill something with food and I need to figure out what that something is so that I can learn to turn to a different coping mechanism. Right now I know I'm lonely and depressed so I really need to find things to take up my time that don't involve food. I really, really need to start going to the YMCA because that will not only get me out of the house but maybe I can make some friends there. Its time to start putting some plans into action instead of just talking about them. Well I'm off for the day, got a to do list a mile long and never ending and if I lay in this bed much longer I'm just going to go back to sleep. Hope all of you have a great day.
Posted by Christina at 3/07/2011 07:26:00 AM