Monday, March 21, 2011
How many times have I said those very words to myself, "I'll Start Tomorrow"? Here it is almost 3 months later and tomorrow has never came. Where's my motivation, where's my determination, where's my desire to lose weight? I wish I knew because apparently losing weight isn't that important to me, if it was wouldn't I be doing everything I could to lose? I'm fed up with myself, I'm fed up with the eating, I'm fed up with the binging and purging and the feeling guilty that comes along with that and I'm fed up with lieing to myself each and everyday. I've made commitments to myself and to all of you and I've failed each and every time. Why do I put myself through this? Just stop overeating, get my lazy ass outside and walk and quit making excuses for not doing what I promise myself. I'm sick of being fat, sick of being tired, sick of being lazy and sick of whining about things that I can change if I just stick to what works. I need to face it tomorrow will never come, thats just a fairytale I tell myself to be able to eat badly for just one more day. All I really have is right now, I need to stop worrying about what I will eat or do tomorrow and start worrying about what I'm eating and doing right now. Life is to short and I've already wasted 37 years do I really want to waste another 37? Right now is the time to get my life together and make the most of what I have. I graduate in a year and when I walk across that stage its not just about getting my diploma its about becoming a new person. I want that to include my outward person just as much as my inward person. Like the saying goes "Just Do It".