Today is the first day that I've really felt that I'm having to fight the temptation to binge....well maybe not binge but go over my weight watcher points for the day. My two youngest sons are going to their fathers and my oldest wants to go out to eat after they leave. Part of me is saying well go and just get something healthy but where he wants to eat is an all you can eat place. Even if I just eat a salad which I'm sure I could do it would still be full of eggs, cheese and salad dressing, thats way over my points.
I just don't want this to start those thoughts again. I won't lie, it did pass through my mind earlier that I could binge and purge just this once but I know better than that. One time leads to another and another and another and I'm never doing that again. Now that I think about it I need to add that to my list of resolutions for 2012. I've never made it a whole year without binging and purging in the last 13 years I've been doing it. This is my year and I'm not giving into this temptation, not today, not next week, not ever.
Stay strong Christina, you can do this. Can you suggest another place to your son that would have healthier choices or at least not an 'all you can eat'. I'm thinking of you and wishing you the best this year. One day at a time Christina. I think we both need to rid ourselves of the thinking "just this one time". As you said, it is never just this one time. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteThanks Tammy for the encouragement. My son ended up eating at my moms and I just ate a bowl of vegetable soup for dinner and I even had enough points left to have a skinny cow ice cream sandwich...yay...One day at a time, u got that right. Wishing u the best year to.
ReplyDeleteMust be something in the air because I was struggling with wanting to binge all day too. I finally settled down a bit but its still in the back of my head. And before my body atleast tried to fake being hungry. Im not feeling hungry at all right now but that doesnt stop the want of buttery toast or my sons poptarts. I just had some frozen grapes and IM DONE. I think I might go brush my teeth and floss.
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Christina its great that u are finding new ways to avoid eating, just keep up your strength and motivation an u will be at goal in no time.
ReplyDeleteyou can do it!!! It's awesome you thought about it beforehand and stopped yourself that's progress in itself!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Christina, so many Christina's on here I can't keep us all straight....lol
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