Todays post is going to be kind of short, it has been a really hard day. This isn't something that I have shared with many people but things haven't been to good between my husband and myself pretty much since we met. We dated for about a year before we moved in together and then after about 2 years of being together we split up only to get back together with the hope of working on our relationship. Things really didn't get any better but we got married anyways in 2006, in February of 2009 we split up again. We both went through seperate counseling for issues we were having and I believing like I always have that I can change the world thought that if I changed the behaviors that caused problems when we were together before that I could save our marriage. March of 2010 we decided to give our marriage one last chance and things were better for awhile but we are just to different to make things work. He is the quiet, stay at home, wanting peace kind of person and I'm the outgoing, want to experience life kind of person. Last night we talked and we both decided we weren't happy and it was best for us to go our seperate ways. He moved out today and even though I know its for the best its still hard. I haven't really eaten much today because I'm not that hungry and kind of stressed but I am going to walk in a few minutes just to relieve some of the emotions I'm going through.
Breakfast- 2 packs instant oatmeal
1/4 cup chopped mixed nuts
water (16.9 oz)
Lunch- veggie burger, no mayo, no cheese (Burger King)
small diet coke
I'm going to walk now. There will be no picture of the day for my challenge, I think I deserve a pass for the day.
I am very, very sorry. Having never gone through this, I won't even pretend to know how you are feeling, but I can imagine it's really tough and emotional. Please know you are in my prayers as you navigate through the next few days and weeks. Again, I'm very sorry!
ReplyDeleteOh god I'm so sorry. Please feel free to email me if you want to vent to a stranger...
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Christina, I am so, so very sorry. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear your news BUT I think you should be proud of yourselves for trying and then making the decision to move on rather than keeping yourself in a loop of unhappiness.
ReplyDeleteHang in there lady . . . letting go is hard, but sometimes it's the best thing. *hug*
ReplyDeleteThanks everybody, I appreciate the support more than you can ever know. I'm just trying to figure out what to do next. Usually I shut down after things like this happen but I'm trying deal with my emotions and move forward. I don't want this to effect my schooling or my weight loss. My kids are taking it pretty well but I need to stay strong for them.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry and I know things will get better for you. Hugs...
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. I am so, so, so, sorry. Just know that it is for the best and that it will get better from here. It's just a part of your lifestyle change. Things happen, people fall out of love. But this doesn't mean that you have to break down. This might mean that you'll find someone who you are much happier with. This might mean that you will learn to be happy with yourself. When bad things happen, you have to remember that out of the biggest rainstorm can come a rainbow. I know it's little compared to the issue at hand, but I broke my ankle and thought that it was the most horrible thing that had ever happened to me. And, in many ways, it was. But so much good has come out of this experience. You never know how things will turn out, so don't get too down. Let yourself be sad if you need to, but remember that we are all here for you and that it is going to be okay.
ReplyDeleteI think maybe rather than thinking of it as a bad thing or an ending of something, look at this as a new beginning with new opportunities. I mean you did try, so it is not as if you failed, it just wasn't meant to be and you were smart enough to realize that rather than continue to spin your wheels. Great job in another life decision!
ReplyDeleteOH Sweetie, I am so sorry you are going through this. As I look at your weight loss chart I am totally amazed at the progress you have made in spite of the issues you have been dealing with. I will keep you and your family in my prayers!
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Mary
I am sorry to hear your news. It must be terribly difficult on you. Thinking of you as you move foreward. (((((((HUGS))))))))
ReplyDeleteThanks everybody. It helps so much to know that I'm not alone during a time like this. Just the support I have been offered from my blogging buddies has made such a difference. Things aren't so bad right now I think I'm alittle numb but I want to move forward with my life. I've put to many years into this relationship already and its time to write a new chapter. I think between kids, college and losing weight I should have enough to keep me busy right now and keep me focused on my goals. Again thanks to all of you.
ReplyDeleteOh Christina...I'm SO SO SORRY. My love, thoughts, and prayers are with you. Hang in there, my friend. *BIG HUGS*
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Stephanie, I redid my bedroom today and I put the candles I got from you right beside my bed so I will be enjoying them when I need to take some time to relax.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you have to go through this. It must be super hard. Hang in there and if you feel like it is best, then it will be for the best. Good thoughts your way!
ReplyDeleteHang in there Christina! You are a strong woman and doing what is best for your family's future. I am sending warm thoughts and big hugs your way!
ReplyDeleteThanks Dr Fat to Fit and Brigitte. It will get easier as time goes by. I just want to focus on the future and what I can do to make our lives better.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear things didn't workout. It may be hard to see now but I'm sure you know it was for the best and the right thing for both of you. Change is good and you'll get through this to a better place.... Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThanks MB I know it was for the best and things are going ok right now. I'm just trying to focus on making my life alittle better each day. I have so many plans for the future.
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