Friday, November 19, 2010

Losing my Fire

I got this wonderful comment from Shane G. at and I thought I would share it with everyone.

"Christina, I can't help but notice you seem to have lost a little fire, and that is understandable considering your recent changes in life. I just worry about you. I would very much like to see you do something. Take this weekend, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, and focus on your diet and exercise to the point that it takes over your life. Get double workouts in, really focus on good eating, and see if being OCD on those aspects of your life may help you get through this rough time. I also would like to suggest that your walks be nothing less than a time for introspection. I love my Saturday morning 5 mile walks cause they typically help me sort through my junk. It is all I think about while I walk on Saturday morning is what is bothering me right now, how can I fix it, and what can I do nothing about. I either form plans or come to terms with all my junk on those days and it helps to get the "clutter" out once a week. Just a suggestion."

Shane is absolutely right I have lost some of my fire.  I'm not really sure why, maybe its my husband leaving or maybe its just having my routine turned upside down but I just can't seem to get back into my groove.  I'm still exercising and trying to eat right but I'm slipping alittle and I don't want that little to turn into alot.  I had already decided last night that I was getting back on tracking starting today and so far I'm doing really good.  I went out last night and got some ziploc bags so I could measure out my portions of bran cereal I eat in the morning.  It seems lately that my serving sizes are getting bigger and bigger and thats not going to help me lose weight.  I also made a workout schedule so I could hold myself accountable on days when I want to be lazy.  I went and bought some Vitamin D today in the hopes that it will help on the days where I'm just really depressed and don't want to do anything. A few days ago I made a trip to the library and got some books to read and this is really helping with my boredom in the evening.  I also pampered myself alittle last night with a long bath, facial and lotion.  I'm not giving up on my weight loss no matter what else is going on in my life because I have come to far to go back now. 

I just want to say thanks to Shane and everyone else who leaves me comments on my blog.  Your support and encouragement is what keeps me going.  I know if I didn't have this blog I would have given up along time ago but knowing that everyone is rooting for me and checking on my progress motivates me because I don't want to let any of you down.  I may be having a hard time focusing on my weight loss right now but I'm going to push through this road block and get back on course.  There is no better time then right now to start because I definitely don't want to gain any weight back.  Its just discouraging sometimes when you don't see the scale moving like you want it to but I have to remember its not just about the number on the scale.  I've already had to put away 4 pairs of pants that are to big for me now and I have some others that are almost there.  I see changes in my body and I need to remember those are the things I'm working hard for not just the number on the scale to go down.

I'm going to take your advice Shane and really focus on my eating and exercise this weekend and show myself what I'm made of.  I'm going to figure out what I can do to fix the things I can and let go of the things I can't.  I have plenty of time to take care of everyone else and I need to make sure I make time to take care of myself to.  I'm going to strive to make this next week the best I've had so far.  I need to be strong because with the holidays coming up this is already a tough time a year.  I can do this I know I can.


  1. Sounds like excellent advice for all of us. And you are on the right track with all the steps you are taking to get back in the swing. Hang in there.

  2. Thanks FatAngryBlog and Dr. Fat to Fit, we all just have to keep trying and never give up, we will make it to our goal eventually.