Friday, August 20, 2010
It seems like no matter what mood I'm in I can find a reason to eat. Earlier today someone made me a little mad and I was on my way to the store to get a few things and the first thing that popped into my head was what could I get to make myself feel better? Then it hit me eating something bad for me wasn't going to make me feel better it would actually make me feel worse. Why should I give the person who upset me the satisfaction of knowing that they had that kind of effect on me? Why should I punish myself for their insensitivity? And that's exactly what it would have been was punishment. At first it may have felt good but after I consumed a bag of candy or a gallon of ice cream who would be left to feel the pain, not the person who upset me, I would. Now I will admit as you can see by my food journal that I did get me a peppermint patty but only one and I know from being in weight watchers that its only 3 points so that's not that bad. It feels good to be able to step back from my feelings and look at why I'm wanting to binge and being able to say NO to myself.