Thursday, August 26, 2010

One of those days

Well my day started off pretty good.  I had the house all clean and got the kids off to school and I didn't have school today so I was going to use this day to just relax.  The first thing that went bad was I had to go to the doctor for my yearly physical which is never fun.  First you have to go through all the steps of preparing, such as shaving your legs which as an overweight person isn't easy.  Then I get to the doctors office and the first thing they do is weigh you.  Of course by their scales I had only lost 4 lbs instead of 7 so that was depressing.  Then you go through all the doctors questions and your examine which I didn't mind as much as having to weigh.  My doctors pretty cool about my weight though because I told her how I was eating right and exercising and how I had started this blog which was very motivational to me.  I've been going to this doctor for a very long time and she knows all about my history of bulimia.  She was very proud of me for starting a weight loss program and also for going back to school.  We also talked about how well my depression  medicine was working and how my bulimia was gone so I'm definitely staying on my medicine.

After the doctor visit I stopped by the grocery store and bought a bunch of fruits and vegetables so I had healthy stuff in the house to eat.  I came home and layed around and got bored so I feel like I was doing alot of snacking. By the time dinnertime was here I don't even think I was hungry I just ate for the sake of eating.  That feeling of being to full and putting myself down for eating to much made me feel miserable and like I was just a big screwup.  I wasn't even going to exercise because of feeling so down but I managed to drag myself outside and walk thirty minutes with my husband.  Thank God I did because I do feel better now and on top of that I come back to so many nice comments on my blog which really cheered me up.  I guess my day wasn't that bad after all; I'll just have to make tomorrow a better day.


  1. I'm so sorry you had such a bad day. *BIG HUGS* I hope tomorrow is better for you.

  2. I am not a fan of going to the doctor, either, so I can relate. Sorry that your day was not all that great. I do think you handled it pretty well and you are right, it wasn't that bad :)

  3. First off--you have still lost 7 pounds. If you had weighed in at the doctor's office when you started and then again yesterday, it would have been 7 lbs. Scales are different and that is why you should only go off of your home scale. That is the one that you always use. At the doctor's you had clothes on and had probably had a meal. I never look at my weight when they weigh me at the doctor's (and feel bugged if the nurse announces it to me), because I do now want to get discouraged. I always weigh more at the Dr.'s than I do at home. Do not worry about that!

    You may not have had your best day, but you bought fruits and veggies AND you *did* exercise. Those are successes and you should be proud of them. I have been trying to lose weight my whole life. I have had success and failure throughout this process. In the last few years I have been working a little more diligently at it, and it has still been a very slow process. I am about 2 pounds away from having lost 50 lbs. That is exciting, but there is a part of me that thinks, "Yeah, but it has taken you several YEARS to do this. You should have lost ALL of your weight by now." Should I listen to that negative voice (sometimes I do) or focus on the fact that I am so much healthier and almost 50 pounds smaller than I was 3 years ago? It is a tough lesson to learn and I am still working on that myself. But we do not help ourselves at all with getting down and depressed and negative when we aren't perfect. We need to be kinder to ourselves and more congratulatory of the small victories, especially on the harder days. So pat yourself on the back!!!

    And the best part is that we CAN start over the next day and do better. :-)

    Hang in there. You can and ARE doing this!

  4. Thank you all for the pep talk and you are right Wendy today is a better day. Looking back now yesterday wasn't such a bad day sometimes I just need someone to knock some sense into on losing almost 50 lbs Wendy that is a big achievement.

  5. I use Schick Intuition to shave. By far the best razor in the world. You don't have to use shaving cream or anything. I love them! I started using them like 5 years ago.

  6. I will have to try those razors, but its not the razor that really gives me the problem its the weight that makes it harder to shave. Guess I just have to lose weight to solve that problem.

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