From as far back as I can remember I have been overweight and have attempted one diet after another to try to become that skinny girl I always dreamed of being. I'm starting this blog in hopes of using this as my motivational tool to finally change my lifestyle and get healthy. Feel free to cheer me on, give me advice or criticize me if need be. I'm way tougher on myself than anyone else can be on me.
I just realized there are only 30 days left until New Years. This last month has been really stressful and even though I've continued to lose weight I still don't feel like I'm doing my best. I know I should be happy with what I've accomplished so far but its hard not to see where I've messed up and wished I could have done better. I want to end this year on a positive note so I need to really dig deep and get back on track. I was hoping to be under 200 lbs by New Years but I see now thats not going to happen but thats ok because in 30 days I can get alot closer to that goal then I am right now. I have my sons birthday party coming up in the middle of the month and then Christmas dinner but I'm really not that concerned about these events. I do need to get back to the basics and start watching my carbs, sugar and sodium intake and increase my fiber, fruits, vegetables and water intake. Its going to get harder for me to exercise outside as it gets colder so I'm thinking of joining the YMCA so I always have a place to workout. I don't want to give myself any reason to be lazy. I was thinking earlier how long I've been on my weight loss journey and how I haven't had one week where I have gained. I just checked and thats 15 weeks of straight losses but yet I beat myself up for not doing better. This is the first time in my life that I'm eating right and exercising and losing weight in a healthy way so why am I always complaining? Does anyone else feel like what they are doing isn't good enough? Why do we do this to ourselves? Its no wonder we keep losing and gaining the weight back our self esteem is shot. I'm starting back to counseling soon and this is going to be one of the issues I work on is my self esteem and confidence. Until I have these qualities I don't think I'm going to be successful at anything in life because if I don't believe in myself who else is going to. So I'm challenging everyone else including myself to make these last 30 days of the year the best so far. Lets start the New Years off with a bang.