Saturday, October 16, 2010
It's so hard not to give into that voice thats telling me to eat a whole package of cookies or a gallon of ice cream or hit a couple fast food restaurants but I won't give in....not this time. I know what that leads to for me. First I binge and for alittle while I feel really good because the food makes the pain go away but then the guilt sets in. After the guilt comes the voice telling me I can fix what I've done wrong by purging. Its like an addiction and the pull is so strong but you aren't going to win this time. I am way stronger than I use to be and I'm going to be happy and healthy no matter what that takes.
I think my life is finally on the right path and along with the baggage of losing all this weight there is other baggage I need to take care of. Have you ever felt like there were things in your life holding you back from your true purpose? This journey to lose weight is about so much more then just the pounds. Its about healing on the inside as much as it is about the oustide. I've allowed so much damage to be done to me from emotional, to physical and even mental. Its time for me to take my life back and be who I was meant to be.