Sunday, October 24, 2010
Between living with a food pusher and feeling like I'm living in a war zone I'm stressed to the max. The reason I put the title "What is different?" is because thats what I'm wondering what is different this time? Before I started this weight loss journey a day like this would have had me eating everything I could get my hands on to sooth my stress. Have I learned to deal with these situations? Have I learned to face my emotions and not bury them with food? Have a I got to a point where I just can't take being fat anymore? Could it be the medicine I'm on? Why do I want to know what is different? Because I want to make sure I never lose the willpower, motivation, determination or just personal growth that is keeping me going.
I am going to lose the weight this time I have no doubt about that but when you change so drastically over such a short period of time you have to wonder if that change is permanent. I guess only I can decide that though. Maybe its the willpower that I gain from other people's negativity. Maybe its my determination to change my life and make my familes life better. Maybe its the motivation to be healthy and happy finally. Or maybe its just my own personal growth to face my fears and overcome the things I have allowed to hold me back. Whatever it is I'm thankful that I've finally found what it takes to succeed.